i feel like i keep repeating the same day, over and over.

every day starts with pain. i wake up in bed, and i notice that my abdomen hurts. diffuse pain, maybe 5/10. when i get out of bed and sit or stand upright, the severity of the pain hits me; it becomes 7/10.

so i struggle to be happy and motivated when i wake up in the mornings. i hate getting up. i’d rather remain lying down, so i don’t have to face the full extent of the pain.